Dear Diary,
When I go home this weekend, I want to tell my parents that I have chosen to no longer be involved with church services. I may go on special occasions with them for the social aspect, but I currently am seriously questioning my faith and do not think I agree with a lot of the interpretations or feel comfortable to base my life around the Bible. However, I haven't adopted an easy-to-digest label like "athiest" or "agnostic," which makes it a bit harder to explain my feelings, but I know saying I won't go to church will invoke some of the negative stigma surrounding those groups.
My problem is that my parents have different views on this. My mother is a very devout Christian, so I know she won't react to anything radical and will prefer to think I still have more faith than I currently do. My dad attends with us sometimes, but he has never been as involved. He should be more inclined to agree with me, even though he's more apathetic toward a religious life rather than disagreeing with it. So, I need to avoid seeming like I challenge my mother's core beliefs, while also seeming to have the same attitudes as my dad.
The main issue I need to avoid getting too deep into is that of my views on God, the afterlife, and other core Christian beliefs. I think I'm just going to be vague on those details, simply saying, "I believe I can interpret with my own judgement what makes me a good person, and I want to remain open-minded about the creation and purpose behind the universe." Then, I'll point out the good aspects I do agree with, like no stealing and killing and having compassion for others.
I hope this works out well, and that I continue to explore my relationship with Christianity in a thoughtful way.
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